Monday, October 18, 2010
One Month Until the Due Date!
One month until I'm officially due! We'll see how accurate that date really is soon enough....
Friday, October 15, 2010
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day
Today, October 15th, is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.
The resolution to declare October 15 a remembrance day passed the United States House of Representatives on September 28, 2006. On this day, parents who have lost a child light candles at 7:00 p.m. in their respective time in memory of what they have lost.
You can read more about this day here and here.
The resolution to declare October 15 a remembrance day passed the United States House of Representatives on September 28, 2006. On this day, parents who have lost a child light candles at 7:00 p.m. in their respective time in memory of what they have lost.
You can read more about this day here and here.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Update from my 35 Week Check-up
I'm 1 cm dilated and 60% effaced.
I can stop taking procardia but I am still on modified bedrest for at least one more week.
We have no idea when Joaquin will make his debut ;-)
I can stop taking procardia but I am still on modified bedrest for at least one more week.
We have no idea when Joaquin will make his debut ;-)
Ticker Change Thursday - 35 Weeks
Joaquin is 35 weeks today and about the size of a honeydew melon. His kidneys are fully developed now, and his liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete — he'll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.
How far along? 35 weeks
Weight gain/loss: I'm up a total of 34 pounds.
Sleep? I am waking up about once an hour to pee every night these days. Otherwise, sleep is good.
Best moment this week? Seeing our little boy yesterday and finding out he is growing big and healthy.
Movement: Movement has picked up again. He really likes to kick me when I'm about to go to bed.
Food cravings: Sushi!!!
What I miss? Going out to dinner.
What I am looking forward to? Having this baby.
Milestones: I'm 35 weeks today, which is a big milestone! 35 weeks down, 35 days to go until my due date!
What I'm nervous about: I'm hoping that we aren't waiting too much longer after all of this worrying about going into labor too soon!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Update from our last Ultrasound
Joaquin is measuring 6 1/2 pounds!!! This is fabulous news and we are so relieved to know that he is big enough now to be a healthy baby if he is born a little early.
Unfortunately, we didn't get any pictures this time to share. I think it is because he is so big that he is all squished in there and the pictures would not have been very good.
It was fun to get to see him again but we just can't wait to meet him!
I have an appointment with my OB tomorrow and I am hopeful that I will be able to stop taking the procardia, or at least drastically reduce the amount I am taking. I might even be released from bed rest. That would be fantastic.
Unfortunately, we didn't get any pictures this time to share. I think it is because he is so big that he is all squished in there and the pictures would not have been very good.
It was fun to get to see him again but we just can't wait to meet him!
I have an appointment with my OB tomorrow and I am hopeful that I will be able to stop taking the procardia, or at least drastically reduce the amount I am taking. I might even be released from bed rest. That would be fantastic.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Tomorrow
Just a reminder that tomorrow we have a growth ultrasound at 8:30 a.m.
The ultrasound is at the high-risk center we have gone to before where we got those great 3D pictures.
Please wish us luck that Joaquin is growing on track (or ahead of schedule!) and that everything else looks good. We will share the pictures tomorrow.
The ultrasound is at the high-risk center we have gone to before where we got those great 3D pictures.
Please wish us luck that Joaquin is growing on track (or ahead of schedule!) and that everything else looks good. We will share the pictures tomorrow.
What a Difference a Year Makes
One year ago today, Jay and I officially lost our first child. We had known that our baby was no longer living for a few, extremely painful, days, but on October 12, 2009, I had a D&C and our pregnancy was officially over.
I don't think I will ever forget the feeling of pure agony and sadness that I felt as we drove home after the procedure. Until that moment it really had not hit me that it was all over. I cried uncontrollably. I had no idea what to do next, how I was just supposed to move on, go back to work, function normally and try again, knowing that I would be risking experiencing this pain again if I did. Nothing could have possibly prepared me for the devastation that I felt.
Very slowly, I started to feel like myself again. But I don't think that anyone who has gone through that experience is ever really the same again. It is not something that is possible to forget. But, I gradually went from thinking about our loss every minute of every day to every hour, to a few times a day and now I think about it probably every other day, but the feelings are not as raw.
Today, one year after our loss, Jay and I are so incredibly happy to be where we are. We are only a few weeks away from welcoming our son into this world and have never been so excited about anything before. And, while neither of us believes that bad things happen for a reason, we do believe that people have the ability to find some good in a bad situation.
Because of what we went through, we have absolutely no doubt that we are ready to be parents. We appreciate how lucky we are in a way we never would have before. We are more sensitive to other people who have experienced a loss or had trouble trying to have children. We are truly grateful for what we have. It is a lot harder to feel sorry for yourself when you are stuck at home on a beautiful day due to bed rest when you went through hell just to get (and stay) pregnant in the first place.
When Jay and I finally decided we were ready to try to start a family in July of 2009, I never would have guessed that we would have this experience. I certainly would never have guessed that my body would either be pregnant, or be recovering from a pregnancy for over a year before I would actually have a baby to take home. But I have a feeling that when we finally meet our little Joaquin, we will know that this was all worth it.
I don't think I will ever forget the feeling of pure agony and sadness that I felt as we drove home after the procedure. Until that moment it really had not hit me that it was all over. I cried uncontrollably. I had no idea what to do next, how I was just supposed to move on, go back to work, function normally and try again, knowing that I would be risking experiencing this pain again if I did. Nothing could have possibly prepared me for the devastation that I felt.
Very slowly, I started to feel like myself again. But I don't think that anyone who has gone through that experience is ever really the same again. It is not something that is possible to forget. But, I gradually went from thinking about our loss every minute of every day to every hour, to a few times a day and now I think about it probably every other day, but the feelings are not as raw.
Today, one year after our loss, Jay and I are so incredibly happy to be where we are. We are only a few weeks away from welcoming our son into this world and have never been so excited about anything before. And, while neither of us believes that bad things happen for a reason, we do believe that people have the ability to find some good in a bad situation.
Because of what we went through, we have absolutely no doubt that we are ready to be parents. We appreciate how lucky we are in a way we never would have before. We are more sensitive to other people who have experienced a loss or had trouble trying to have children. We are truly grateful for what we have. It is a lot harder to feel sorry for yourself when you are stuck at home on a beautiful day due to bed rest when you went through hell just to get (and stay) pregnant in the first place.
When Jay and I finally decided we were ready to try to start a family in July of 2009, I never would have guessed that we would have this experience. I certainly would never have guessed that my body would either be pregnant, or be recovering from a pregnancy for over a year before I would actually have a baby to take home. But I have a feeling that when we finally meet our little Joaquin, we will know that this was all worth it.
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